BLOSSOM GRAM

A heartbreak to me refers to all your emotions being jumbled up in your head and heart or is it in your head only? It has a bitter taste, it recurs like a bad cold and the problem is, the only remedy for it is time. But time seems to not flow fast enough to forget and you feel stuck, you feel stagnant, you start repeating the same thing because it seems as though you’re tired of trying to look for new synonyms of being stuck. I always wonder why we hate them that break our hearts? Is it us trying to find a reason to move on and be free or did we actually hate them but thought it was love. (This is very confusing – ukielewa kindly fafanulia the guys at the back). But you want them to continue being happy, to find peace, to find grace in all that they do but at the same time you want to be part of that but that boat is slowly sailing and leaving you drowning in your own tears and thoughts, (I think I'll call this piece, Tears, and Thoughts) and your pain being a constant reminder t...

Time as we know it or maybe we’ve been told a couple of million times is that “Time waits for no man”. But why shouldn’t time wait for me though? Why do I have to figure out everything before a certain time and if I don’t then I’ll spend lots of time in regret. I’ve been told by no one but there’s this constant voice in my head that echoes, “You are not ambitious enough” but what it doesn’t know is that I am planning to be. Ambition is a strong desire to achieve something. So I’d be right to say that I am ambitious to find out what I am truly ambitious about. I don’t know what path to take and it's really messing up with my feelings lately. I know I said that we all have a path to follow and we will get to know it but I still feel as though I need to know it now. Most of my peers seem to have their shit together and here I am writing to my beloved readers hoping one of them will comment on an idea of what I should try. I don’t know how many of us feel this way but them that f...

 “You are not where you want to be You feel like you are supposed to be somewhere else” “You said it” “Well, say you could snap your fingers And be wherever you wanted to be I bet you would still feel this way. Not in the right place” “Point is, you cannot get so hung up on where you’d rather be That you forget how to make the most of where you are” “What are you telling me?” “Take a break from worrying about what you cannot control And live a little” Dear Stranger,  Do you ever feel as though you’ve hit a wall and cannot progress? You have this clear picture of who you are supposed to be but you don’t have an idea of how you will get there. You spend time building castles and making promises to yourself that you seem to not meet and now you walk around having broken your own heart with your ambitious expectations. The question is who do you cry to when you break your heart?  Does it ever piss you off how some people seem to have it easy but the truth is you didn’t see th...

'Cause you're the reason I believe in fate You're my paradise And I'll do anything to be your love, or be your sacrifice 'Cause I love you for infinity   Dear Strangers, “Just because they don’t love you the way you want to be loved doesn’t mean they don’t love you with everything they have” I’ve recently gone through an experience that had me question everything I believed in and stood by but I’m slowly growing my faith and patience back.   Have you ever felt like giving your partner the world but then realized that both of you are from two different worlds. Let me explain it for the guys at the back; I don’t believe in that whole ‘we are alike in so many ways’ crap because the natural way of things is unlike poles attract; so your partner should be nothing like you. And yes I am judging those of you who are similar to their partners because that means you are narcissistic people. We all have different POVs of life and I believe understanding ...

Pain Promotes Growth!!! I believe that most of us have gone through some type of pain and we dealt with it in our own way but some of us weren’t able to and parked beside it. Pain, as defined by a group of white dudes, means sadness caused by some emotional or mental problem and I believe that we have different limits to it and some like myself have a tendency to downplay this emotion because it is said in my layman’s tongue, (Mwanaume ni kukaa ngumu) I recently lost a close friend to it (not death though) but I can’t shake the feeling that things would have turned out better if I reached out more. Pain in our generation is so weighty that the mere feeling of it generally gets related to depression and the lines get so blurry that we can’t tell the difference. I am not sure if she was in pain? or if she was depressed? She had the google signs of a person going through pain then I tried my least (because if it was my best then…) and comforted her, but then she also secluded hersel...