My Love,
I wanna
be alone
Alone
with you, does that make sense?
I wanna
steal your soul
And hide
you in my treasure chest
I promised myself that I would achieve a series of things
before I gave love another chance and things worked perfectly till I saw her
and we looked into each other’s eyes and she lit my gloomy world with her
smile. She drew me in, and like a moth to a flame, I broke my walls to let her in. She felt… feels worth it.
I don't
know what to do
To do
with your kiss on my neck
I don't
know what feels true
But this
feels right so stay a sec
Yeah, you
feel right so stay a sec
She has me building castles of how life will be with her by my
side and I genuinely cannot wait to see if I was right about it all. She fits
into my world and I am comfortable sharing my bubble with her. All this is
somewhat scary since it has been a while since I felt this way and I am afraid
of opening doors and maybe just maybe she might not like what she sees inside
and decides to leave, but I still want to risk it. Maybe, she will stay…
I hope she stays.
And let
me crawl inside your veins
I'll
build a wall, give you a ball and chain
It's not
like me to be so mean
You're
all I wanted
Just let
me hold you like a hostage
I don’t know how you lot love but I seem to enjoy my partner’s
company. I have sat with people before and they said that they cannot stay with
their partners for long periods since they would get bored and I
wondered, How would you staying with your partner be boring? I mean, she walks
into a room and I feel like a kid again. I crave her touch and voice, I earnestly
listen to her talk and giggle about things I cannot understand but seem important
to her. Her mere existence is a mystery to me as it brings me so much peace and
looking into her calm eyes has me yearning to clothe myself in her presence so
that I can feel that way always… but you will get bored staying with your
partners? Ah ah ah ah ah I wonder!!!!
My two cents are that most people got manipulated by their
toxic partners that spending time together for a long period of time will make
them get bored of you and they believed it which led to them not experiencing
the bliss of having their partner by their side all the time. The joy and chaos you are missing out on is a lot and yet you wonder how you never really knew someone and yet you claimed to be in love with them.
And
nothing hurts when I'm alone
When
you're with me and we're alone
I have this theory that when we risk love we show our best self
and are often afraid of our flaws and insecurities being revealed but they also
want to be seen and many a time these ‘partners’ leave when they see them
which results in us fortifying our walls to hide our flaws better. But with her, I
am not afraid of being seen. I have this gut feeling that she will love me more
when she sees my weakness and I too will do the same. Maybe I am biting more than
I can chew but I am convinced this is a risk I should take.
And let
me crawl inside your veins
I'll
build a wall, give you a ball and chain
It's not
like me to be so mean
You're
all I wanted
Just let
me hold you
Hold you
like a hostage
Like a
hostage
I am happily going through these doors and hoping this love
stays. It has been a while since I experienced life from the other side and I want
to remember how that felt like. I think I am prepared for the arguments, the
meaningless yet meaningful fights, the pettiness, the jealousy, the awkward moments,
the silence, and above all the love I am about to be given and also give. May
this be a beautiful journey.
You are
exactly and perfectly what I’ve waited for.
Love,
Thairu.
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