FLIGHT OF THE STARS

Ma Fleur,

I think I am in love.

I’ve found myself missing you lately. I yearn for the next moment I’ll get to hold your hand and maybe listen to your heartbeat. I find myself smiling and giggling at the thought of you. You have me believing in this fairy tale bs. I’ve been singing Frank Sinatra’s ‘I’ve got you under my skin’ then I get engulfed in a state of euphoria as I relive our moments in my head.

‘I've got you under my skin

I've got you deep in the heart of me

So deep in my heart

That you're really a part of me

Yes, I've got you under my skin

Under my skin’

I have a lot I want to do and say but our time together always seems limited. I want to hug you tightly until we are warped into one. I always seem not to be getting enough of you. I want to hold hands more, talk a little bit more, dance, and go crazy a tiny bit more. I want to cook more with you and get to complain about salt.

I want to listen as you talk about that random show you watched. I want to hear you laugh and watch you cover your mouth since your ‘ugly’ laughter has come out and you fear someone else might have heard it. I want… I want… I want more of those eyes, your eyes my vespers twilight, I want to see myself in those eyes.

I want to shout “I Love You” and hear you say it back. I want to walk more and complain about how slow you walk. Everything about you is graceful and I love how everything seems simple when you do it. I enjoy every moment I get to spend with you. I want some time skips so that I can finally bend my knee and ask for your hand.

I want to celebrate all your wins. I want to be there at your most vulnerable but;

I also don't want to forget the present, it's a gift

I don't wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me

Lord only knows, another day is not really guaranteed

So, every time you hold me

Hold me like this is the last time

Every time you touch me

Touch me like this is the last time

Promise that you'll love me

Love me like you'll never see me again,

I want a whole lot more but forever seems like enough time.

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