BLOSSOM GRAM

  My Little Haven, I know I stand in line Until you think you have the time To spend an evening with me And if we go some place to dance I know that there's a chance You won't be leaving with me Albert Schweitzer said that if you love something then you have to let it go and he didn’t say how much letting go hurts. One plus one isn’t adding up to two since explain this; I love you, but I have to let you go because of that love. Why? Is it because my love is wrong? Is it because I am underserving of your love? Or is the world adamant about me sacrificing everything I proclaim to love just to teach me some lesson I never care about?  The simple art of letting go is not simple at all. You have to take a deep breath and accept that your beloved shall be in the arms of another. That whatever you love will be loved better wherever it goes. That it will be taken care of better than you could ever do. But then what if you loved it unconditionally, do you still have to ...

Life has a tendency to teach you things. The problem is we … I tend not to learn. I tell myself that I am a quick learner but clearly, I am not. I have failed this lesson so many times and if I could turn back time and slap myself for all the dumb things I have done then I would. I know I am not supposed to beat myself up as much but then again, how long will it take me to learn and finally understand that I need to move. Having to remain cool and happy while you are going crazy chini ya maji is a hassle. You have to remain calm underneath the storm whilst laughing when deep down you want to scream. You want to let out a wail and maybe you will just hear yourself and finally stop being foolish. I know what I am supposed to do. I am supposed to take the steps, but again I am afraid of doing so. I am afraid of opening those doors and walking through them. The repercussions will be painful but they will come with my peace of mind after I have gone through all the levels of crazy. Hope...

  Dearly Beloved, You know that sometimes I think about us now and then But I never wanna fall again, I wouldn't want to forget you But with you, it's all or nothing When she left me, I was convinced that she would return but the odd thing about women is they move on whilst still in the relationship. So, by the time she broke off the relationship she had already moved on while I was stuck and convinced that I could save the relationship but I was met by the reality of fanning a dying fire. There was nothing humanly possible that I would have done to spark things up again. The gavel was struck and I was sentenced to this heart-wrenching pain that I could not save myself from. No amount of appeal was getting through and the verdict was the same... you lost... the end. You're deep in the water, yeah, you're drownin' us You question my love like it's not enough But I hate that you know, you know, you know You got me tied up You regret it now, but it's your mista...