BLOSSOM GRAM

I did it again. I know I didn't tell you the first time but still I thought I wouldn't do it again but I did. I am sitted here beating myself up. Wondering if I am true to myself or maybe true to God.  I hate beating myself up but I feel as though I should be accountable for myself.  Do you also beat yourself up? Do you feel as though you shouldn't forgive yourself? Or is this too uncomfortable so we should just laugh it up and ask bro uko poa?  I have met different people over the two decades and truth be told I tend to forgive them real quick, but I find myself slacking off in the forgiveness department when I piss myself off. Does this make sense? I think it does... (Does it really) I was wondering who I really am though. Am I wearing a mask and my true self is hiding in the dark in a corner with a hoddie, snivelling, wondering why we aren't strong enough? (Oee bro are you okay?) Or maybe this is my true self. A guy who tries. (A trying man)  But does any

  Okay Okay, I know it’s been long lakini hear me out. I have been diagnosed with some communicable disease called ‘procrastinare’ and if you might be knowing the remedy kindly drop it pale chini kwa comments. Nikita Kering’. That’s the title or maybe I’ll change it. Now she has a new song that I don’t really relate with but still, I feel as though I have. ‘EX’ – Cause I ain’t trynna be you’re Ex So don’t call me if you ain’t trynna vibe on my wave I’m on top of my game I’m on my wave, I’m on my wave Yeah! So don’t call me if you ain’t trynna vibe on my wave I’m on top of my game   I suppose you all know we live in a generation that is infatuated by red flags but still you don’t feel like leaving that cocoon. You don’t want to spread your wings on some other guy and lighten up their world, but want to stay trapped and try to ‘fix’ them. I am not cut out for this hard work so I don’t think I am part of these persons or maybe I am but have fallen so far, I don’t know wh