BLOSSOM GRAM

Fellow Love Birds,  If you are reading this then you need to brace yourself. Hey, I know that feeling when that girl texts you and you just want it to go on forever. How she says your name when you call and now you are the giggliest person in the world. How she has you staring at the ceiling at night and building castles. How she has you envisioning the next moment she gets to bless your life with her glow. Then she finally says yes and boom you are dating this girl that has been making you feel great about yourself. You get to second base and you hold hands and now holding hands feels blissful. Your hand now feels cold without her touch and you want more of it. You get addicted and now you are a holding hands junkie. She stills gives you butterflies every time you see her and now you are screaming she is the one. Now now now, It’s a fairytale until reality hits you. Now she has expectations. Well, at first you can do it. It’s the easy stuff, then things get a little bit tough and now

  It rained.   It hadn’t rained in a while and I thought it would be another hot day and I’d buy myself some ice cream ‘ because that’s what people do’ . But it rained. The weather was already dismal and I still hadn’t woken up. Well, I was still going to wear black,  I mean that’s what people do, isn’t it ? I had an unfamiliar feeling; I still do and truth be told I don’t know how to phrase it. Am I angry, sad, annoyed? Aaargh, I still can’t tell. So, I thought, “I will wear yellow today”. And hell, yellow was perfect. It brought color to this dull day. We refer to it as ‘shouting colors’, ama ‘mkambez’ but I didn’t care about all that.    I was no longer inconspicuous. People noticed me and said hey, how are you doing? And it was hard to answer it. How was I? How am I? I am yet to know how to walk through this door that suddenly opened up in my life. I was/ am afraid of going to the other side and would rather just stay here. Well, I have experienced it from movies and anime